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Constable George Crabtree ([personal profile] 19centconstable) wrote2011-12-31 12:37 am

Case #38 Video

[George is eating an orange. And so can you!

He's also thirty-one again. Yes, George is thirty-one. I know.]

I don't think anyone was poorly done by that, were they? It is a bit strange to recall that I couldn't have even pictured myself as a police officer at that age, as now I can't picture myself as being anything else. Besides a detective, obviously. And a writer.

[George chews thoughtfully.]

Although...I don't believe any of the lads back home always yearned to join the constabulary. Not at our station, anyway. I am pleased it's something modern children seem to dream of.

...I also think you all might appreciate indoor plumbing just a bit more than you do. It really is fantastic.

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[identity profile] expectremorse.livejournal.com 2011-12-31 09:20 pm (UTC)(link)
[Hoffman smiles. He doesn't stop smiling either] He's got this little forest thing, and like, a burrow and a whole little exercise room- [He moves over to it-dozens of different wheels]

The admiral went all out for the little guy.


[he stops]-did you get my gifts?

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[identity profile] 19centconstable.livejournal.com 2012-01-01 07:15 pm (UTC)(link)
I did!

[George proudly films his foot. It has a boot on it, but still.]

And I quite look forward to the reading.

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[identity profile] expectremorse.livejournal.com 2012-01-01 07:22 pm (UTC)(link)
I've got a pair of those too. My sister got them for me one Christmas? Just-hand wash them. Don't put them in any of the machines or you'll zap yourself. You can remove the mechanism but it's tricky and you-can't get it back in.

[tried this? No whatever gave you that idea.]

...Good. I wanted..I dunno I figured maybe at some point we could talk cop stuff.

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[identity profile] 19centconstable.livejournal.com 2012-01-01 07:29 pm (UTC)(link)
I would enjoy that very much. I'm always interested to hear about new procedures and techniques.

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[identity profile] expectremorse.livejournal.com 2012-01-01 07:33 pm (UTC)(link)
It's not like I can fucking do anything with it. [bitter? Nah whatever gave you that idea] It's not like I can ever do anything with them again but I'm damn proud of what I know and I figured you could use them.

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[identity profile] 19centconstable.livejournal.com 2012-01-01 07:37 pm (UTC)(link)
What do you mean? Why not?

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[identity profile] expectremorse.livejournal.com 2012-01-01 08:01 pm (UTC)(link)
...I-

[he stops] it's nothing. Forget it. It's stupid to think I-

...It's nothing.

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[identity profile] expectremorse.livejournal.com 2012-01-01 08:45 pm (UTC)(link)
...I may as well you know, try and share knowledge since I can't use it again right? I never liked the idea of teaching.

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[identity profile] 19centconstable.livejournal.com 2012-01-01 09:02 pm (UTC)(link)
Who says you could never use it again?

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[identity profile] expectremorse.livejournal.com 2012-01-01 09:04 pm (UTC)(link)
...George let's be fucking honest okay?

[Who else are you going to talk to about this?]

...since being here I've been killed, mutilated, and killed and mutilated in turn. Not to mention the 9 cops I killed. And my friends.

[He's been struggling with this.] ...I hate myself. For what I did.

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[identity profile] 19centconstable.livejournal.com 2012-01-01 09:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes. Well. What do you propose to do about it?

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[identity profile] expectremorse.livejournal.com 2012-01-01 09:31 pm (UTC)(link)
...I don't know. Fuck if I know? I don't..I don't know. I don't know at all.

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[identity profile] 19centconstable.livejournal.com 2012-01-01 09:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Simply hating yourself for it isn't acceptable.

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[identity profile] expectremorse.livejournal.com 2012-01-01 09:44 pm (UTC)(link)
...Well what the fuck would you do? What should I do?

[he's cranky because it's the new years and he can't drink. And he got alcohol for Christmas and he still can't drink.

He is...really trying.]

...Tell me goddamnit!

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[identity profile] 19centconstable.livejournal.com 2012-01-01 09:51 pm (UTC)(link)
I would try to make up for it somehow.

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[identity profile] expectremorse.livejournal.com 2012-01-01 10:10 pm (UTC)(link)
[he's having a hard time articulating this.] ....Yeah? I suppose I'm..[he twitches] I'm bracing myself for an eternity of paying it back. For living for others, for-

[He both wants to do right and doesn't. The prospect of facing how much his life has changed and how he really should completely devote himself to the service of others

He can't face it. He knows he did wrong. He doesn't want to. He sounds petulant and angry-despite his words.]

.....what should I do?
Edited 2012-01-01 22:11 (UTC)

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[identity profile] 19centconstable.livejournal.com 2012-01-02 12:03 am (UTC)(link)
That's not the sort of thing I can tell you, Detective. You've got to figure it out for yourself, and you have to want to.

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[identity profile] expectremorse.livejournal.com 2012-01-02 12:44 am (UTC)(link)
Why? Why?! Why can't you just...tell me what to do? I keep thinking of everything that I've lost and everything that I lost on purpose and all of the things that I did wrong and it's my fault and..

[There's a thunk. Hoffman leaves the camera behind. When he comes back, he's holding the hamster in his hands.]

...The only option that I see is a life of complete and utter atonement-alone.

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[identity profile] 19centconstable.livejournal.com 2012-01-02 01:24 am (UTC)(link)
Because that sort of thing has got to come from within you to mean anything.

How would your being alone help people?
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[personal profile] lastmanstanding 2012-01-07 05:43 am (UTC)(link)
[Hoffman just holds the hamster, scratching it behind the ears thinking quietly.]

...never mind.